"Ig..." Soft and thick with tears but more sure than anything else has been in this whole conversation.
"I'm pretty sure holding you has been the only thing I've wanted for myself since I was 14." There's a soft, self deprecating laugh in there but more than anything his voice is full of a longing he hasn't allowed himself to express for most of his life.
"I wanted to believe it was enough, that duty was all we needed. I couldn't... I couldn't be so close to you and not be able to touch you. I thought, after all this time. Back here I could just ignore it again but I couldn't. That's why it's all a mess. I'm sorry, Iggy." Crying harder now, his voice failing him for a moment, not quite a sob but something close to it.
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"I'm pretty sure holding you has been the only thing I've wanted for myself since I was 14." There's a soft, self deprecating laugh in there but more than anything his voice is full of a longing he hasn't allowed himself to express for most of his life.
"I wanted to believe it was enough, that duty was all we needed. I couldn't... I couldn't be so close to you and not be able to touch you. I thought, after all this time. Back here I could just ignore it again but I couldn't. That's why it's all a mess. I'm sorry, Iggy." Crying harder now, his voice failing him for a moment, not quite a sob but something close to it.
"I'm sorry."